What's my next PLAN?

Now it is approaching second quarter of the year.
What's the plan?
What's next?
Should I be doing the same thing all over again this whole year?

Teaching, taking care of my daughter all by myself, managing the business, paying all bills and taxes, cleaning the house, trying some business prospect, preparing lesson plans etc etc.

I guess I need to reorganize and simplify some areas. 
I already knows how to handle matters of fact, well then I guess it won't be this hard this time.

1. I still can continue pursuing the family business with the help of an assistant and try to manage it well and improve it.

2. I can still accept teaching job maybe ask our division head to give me easy to handle subjects.

3. I still send my daughter to school but with the help of my cousin in taking care and in fetching her from school.

4. I can accept other duties outside of school to earn extra money - the ones that I can handle only.

5. Thinking of enrolling myself to IELTS in preparation of my processing of VISA.

6. Thinking of gaining some new knowledge related to my profession.

7. Organizing our family documents in preparation of immigration procedures.

8. Hopefully my annulment will soon be over and I can continue using my old surname to all of my other documents and come out FREE from past encumbrances.

9. Encourage myself to earn money from my architectural profession. Accept projects.

10. Enjoy my family more. Learn to accept H for who he is. Encourage Paul to be more responsible. Play with Erika more often.

11. Save , save, save and save more money and endulge myself to mutual funds and stock market.

Huh, at least for the coming 2nd, 3rd and 4th quarter I can make this new plans work out fine.

I miss myself doing blog

It's been awhile..oh i think i wrote my last blog here for months and months already, that's how busy i am with my everyday lives since i came back from Singapore and started to put up a business with my fiancee. It is almost a year now and so far it's good. It's good being with my son and daughter, but it is not good being away from my Herbert for so long.

Yes, i prefer being simple. Being with the four of us together. I just want simple wants
but sometimes it is more complicated when your simple wants doesn't go with your other half wants.

Anyway, i miss writing blog.
Summer halts all my busy days - a little bit, that's why I am here.
I am envy to those blogger who can blog everyday of their lives.
If only life is as simple as writing blog --- then everything will be grand!
but as the moment.
i am rushing my busy life ever!

what goes in my heart

this is not a new year blog because january is almost gone.
today is january 24th of this new year.
i haven't been so updated with my blog nowadays.
i sometimes forgot that it existed.
before, day won't pass by without me opening up my blog, but now it seems like i forgot how to blog.

anyway, so many things happened.
i do not know how to write them all.
all was a mere story of pain, heart aches and loneliness.
i was doing my job, polite as i may, play the rule of a good wife and mother.
but what i reap is not what i sow.
this is impossible.

june july august september october november and december of 2012
that is almost 7 months of pain..

december gives me a little bit shed of hope.
and i hope that life will be fair this time.
i still carry me the pain.
i still long to see the person that cause my pain and make her suffer.
i still am paranoid.
crazy things happen.
even if you think it wont.
but there are people who really don't have conscience at all.
she is one of them.
she will soon pay the price of my broken trust to my husband.

all mistress on earth i loathe you!

but i won't give so much damn on you.
this year you will not exist anymore.
you have no power over me.

i will just wait patiently till the day i watch your karma comes around.