just a thought for myself today

Sometimes, this is so true.

Sometimes you thought things were okey

but in the real sense they were not

or they become 'not okey'

I think it is impossible to live happily ever after

I think that's a fallacy

because no matter how you tried to be okey

make your life on the right path

or the right way

meet people and love them

have your own family

have your own source of living

make things quite okey

but god, why you allow such things to come

on our lives.

fuck you JULIE N. GARCIA whoever you are.

fuck yourself off my husband's mind.

you are one of the cruelest person on earth if you wreck my family.

you are not going to have a peaceful sleep i tell you.

every night and day i will pray that your conscience will guide you.

but fuck you any of way.

red color

tonight i ask my sister to paint my fingernails red.

red.

my first time to have it colored red.
i am a plain color girl only
but i do not know.
my life now seems to be in limbo.
as well as my heart.
i am as hurt as the color of blood.
but i shouldn't bother my heart about dishonest act of love.
i am still whole and complete.
inspite of everything.

if only i can control all things on earth.
and makes the time go in or go out the way i wanted it to be.
i hate 'other woman'
i hate all 'other woman' in the whole world.
how come they wanted to destroy a happy family?
why do they want someone who happens to be a husband of someone already?

i hate that bitch.
i wanted to ignite her hair and make her pay for so many sleepless night i cried.

God help my heart.