Saturday 31 December 2011

oh its NEW YEAR now.

i just want to wish everyone a happy NEW YEAR and hope we will all have
a wonderful new year 2012. I wish for MORE financial blessings, good business for me.
long life, good health to all my love ones, delete all ugly PAST, start NEW new.
be industrious, be independent, hope this is a wonderful year. i really really hope so
cheerrrsss!!!

Monday 19 December 2011

Monday Rain


this is my usual reaction during --- MONDAYS ----
it is soooo difficult to face Mondays specially after a long weekend.
it is so tempting to send sms to colleague and tell them that im (bluffing)-sick.

..but what happens to me today was amazing.
i woke up early, got myself the bus on time.
but was not so lucky to reach our pick up point on time.

whew..raining and all that.
the bus gone already.
so i pick up myself and rode the mrt train instead.
rain did not stop.
i left or lost my lavender umbrella.
no choice but to run in going to office.
all soak and wet.
lucky i bring an extra long sleeve polo and change.

so surprising of me i did not turn my heels back and go back home.

the reason is:
i can no longer make an excuses for the whole week because im-going-home.
i have to be ms perfect attendance..=)

so even if it is Monday lazy day.
i have to be unlazy..=P

Sunday 18 December 2011

chinese cuisine




this is all being serve during our dinner and dance. sponsored by Natsteel Corporation.
Purely chinese cuisine. The taste is quite acceptable to the filipino taste buds. At least the food is good, that makes the night okey.
i dont know but the program is boring. the crowd is expecting more fun, hurray and all. buts and buts..no drinking spree, no cheers and no glass blinging..just a plain old party with awardees and short talk..duh.
nevertheless, i dress up and i put on some make up...i never wear make up so often, that's why, make up is a big deal for me..it sufficiently makes the night fun any of way...=)

i bling

I love being beautiful during the dinner and dance night.
though the party doesn't turns out the way i expected it to be.
but i enjoy it.
because i feel like i am so beautiful.
everybody is looking at me that night.
and i don't care if nobody agrees what i just said.
as long as i bling.

two kids and all that, and yet, i can still rock!



Saturday 10 December 2011

344

what is this number?
-days the earth made a twirl around its axis.
few more days to go before it completes the 365 days route.
so
now we will end up one year of our lives.
what have we gotten this year?
have we left anything behind?
did you try to reach one of your hundreds and thousands of dreams?
did you save up money enough for 'olden' days?
or even just for an emergency?
did you help someone for the past few months?
did you fall inlove or fall out of it?
anyone from loveones died?
or get really sick?
does your wedding happens this year, or first born baby arrived?
what ever it is..time pass by.
so fast.
the day turns into night.
before we even knew it.

344 days.
i survive.
almost.

advance merry christmas and a happy new year to all!

Wednesday 7 December 2011

Rhian and Mo

I am not that affected.
I like Rhian as a star.
She is cool.
I don't like Mo.
I am sorry I just don't like him.

The fact that they came in here to Singapore to have an abortion is uncool.
It is not fun anymore.
$450 Singapore dollar for a legal abortion is all it takes.
But this 'thing' is forever a taunting memory that will come back to both of them in the future.
Now I think I don't like them anymore.

Were they real tears?

Explain Rhian.
Explain!

Sunday 27 November 2011

colors and things

i plan to clean and organize our room for today.
i bought a flowers and cleaning kit.
a little color to make the cleaning easy and fun.

i also cannot resist the spoon and fork utensils.
for future use of me, my husband, Paul and Erika.
a crazy compulsive buy.

=)


my prize




My prize for the Bayanihan event.
Expensive perfumes.
The YSL is not my favorite aroma so i think this will goes to my mother in law. She also like expensive perfumes and she deserves one for christmas. I will take the Stella the smell is simple and my kind.

entre sunday - mAundy Monday


This is my booth

My new found friend Jheck

The Singapore Ambassador Madam Minda
Founder of Bayanihan in Singapore 2001.

The host of the day Ms Joey and Derek

my favorite performer of the day - they sing very well. pang pinoy idol like.

my colorful preloved items.

a message that christmas is few days to go.
'madaming pinoy na OFW ang nauulol when christmas is coming hehehe..the urge to go home is eating us up.

=)




Makes myself urgent leave today due to lack of rest during the weekend. I was out of the house for the whole weekend. I spend my whole day at the office work overtime on Saturday and spend again another one whole day at the bazaar in celebration of 10th year anniversary of Bayanihan, an organization compose of Filipinos in Singapore.

I do my little share of being an entrepreneur that day. I sell some of my vintage clothings, books and preloved bags and shoes. I did not get 'sold out' scenario in which i dreamt about a day before the bazaar, but i sold 2 books and a blouse. See..i did not go home zero. Plus i won a raffle prize with two expensive perfumes worth $180. almost P6,000.00. That's amazing! actually, I wanted to win the round trip ticket from Singapore-Manila-Singapore via Cebu Pacific but i was not the lucky one. Nevertheless, i am happy. It was my second time to win a raffle draw. I am not so lucky in this kind of draws but that was a good luck indeed.

This is not a very big event. The feeling of sometimes, you just know that you have to be there is what i felt..so i pack my goods and went to the bazaar.

- and there are things that you need to realize at the end of the day anyway.

So for a one day bazaar and being in a business mode I learned that you should know 'who are your consumers' so that you will be able to address what they wanted/need to buy.
I was selling VINTAGE clothes mostly but nobody wanted it, or the people outhere doesn't like it because they are mostly oldies or manangs and they wanted to look young instead, they don't want to look old. They are not the kind of people who likes 'vintage'. I am in a wrong place indeed..but i just shrug off because i know im in a wrong place with the wrong people around, my goods is not their 'thing'. So the time goes so fast, matumal ang benta then i decided to just end up enjoying the program with lots of singing and dancing. There is a free food, new friends and laughter. The program ended up with a 3'oclock mass.

The priest preach about 'doing while waiting' it all boils up to one conclusion for the whole day event - I have to strive as best as I can in order to survive the next event of my life so soon.


...........Entrepreneurship............

Saturday 19 November 2011

newest item on filgold


this is the latest design as to update in our filgold company product. this is an ancient pipe or 'pipa' necklace.

those of you who wishes to own one ancient classic design of a jewelry please contact the admin if you wish to order.

www.filgold.com

a treasure you will never regret owning.

Monday 14 November 2011

may i beg your pardon

tell me, why is it that everytime you have to take a leave from work, time runs so fast like it is so excited to end up the day and go back to night time again and you got to sleep early for another day to go to work.

and why is it that it took a hundred years to wait for the time to end the day when you are burned out and not in the mood to work but you have no choice but sit infront of your puter and do some job?

its a whirlwind romance with time.
i cannot understand, it seems like its unfathomable to a human understanding.

who invented time?
who invented work?
who invented money?
who invented effort?
who ask us to go to school?
to get a good job?

why can't we just get some apples or burger for free?
why is the basic commodities need to be payed with money?
why can't anybody avoid 'paying money' for all the things we needed?
why do i have to get up so early in the morning and take a shower even my eyes still close?
just to go to work.
just to earn money.
just to pay things we needed in life.
may i ask the whole world to just give everything for free?
free education, free food, free clothes, free anything?
amazing.
what a wonderful world.

oh boy, may i go to sleep now.
tomorrow maybe a little bit okey and i won't ask anything the same thing all over again.

Sunday 13 November 2011

promise im going to do it

i want to list the things that i will do tomorrow night after office hours.

1. tentative will cook dinner (this might be done by the husband, if and only if he can find a good mood to cook tomorrow night.)

2. arrange layers of clothes in my closet.

3. separate some dress/shirts/pants to give away to Salvation Army.

4. remove all the pants at the back of our door which stays there for a week already and wash them or put it somewhere.

ok i wanted to be real. this is the only things i can do tomorrow night. i don't want to think i will finish them in a blink of an eye.

on tuesday -

1. i can arrange my shoes, husband's shoes inside our room. plus outside shoes and slippers of our boarders.

2. arrange papers, books, letters and separate important documents and put it in a file folder.

3. throw away expired medicines, vitamins, lotions, moisturizer, lip balms, sunscreen protector etc.

good. i got a plan for two days. the rest of the week will be posted next time if i can blog again this week..=)

for the mean time i have a checklist to remind me what to do starting tomorrow night after office hours---

ok goodnight philippines.
goodnight singapore.

p.s don't forget to read one book, at least two chapters everyday.

little chaos

ok before the weekend say goodbye i want to blog and blog because the mode is still on.
but, I am not going to talk about Pacquiao or Marquez.
this is not a blog about them.
i don't want to open my facebook account either, not to this hours and onward.
because Manny and Marquez's talk is dominating the site.
either of way the decision was made and nobody can change it.
either cook or uncook, i don't care.

i was just surprise about the chaos in my small sorrounding today.
i look here and there and saw this mess all around me.
why i don't try to arrange them or organize them i don't know.
i have the intention to.
but don't have the 'gusto' to do it.
but i know in my heart i wanted to organize them, fix them if they are broken or arrange them so it would look nice and proper.




my old bath tub is chaos with shampoos, conditioner, body wash and all washes.


my lotion, moisturizer and other skin stuff, on my table top forms a chaos line also.




my unfinished, unread books on my table inviting me to take a look at them once again.


not mentioning how chaos my wardrobe is.

ah - so many small lovely chaos that i needed to tend.
just like how i deal with life-there are lots of things to tend, mend, send, bend, lend to put everything in a proper end.

is that supposed to rhyme?
sort of.

=)

Saturday 12 November 2011

Tuesday 8 November 2011

Who am I?

Dear myself,

I am in my late 30's and presently working in Singapore as a precast designer. I will not renew my job contract next year because I am planning to go back to the Philippines. Firstly, I wanted to take care of my kids, I wanted to be with them, I've been away for quite sometime and I felt I am guilty of doing so.
Being away a little bit is not bad, but i came to this point in my life where my eldest is growing so fast, grow without me and my youngest is going to start her first school and that i don't ever wanted to miss. I love my kids first and foremost. Secondly, I wanted to become an entrepreneur. I wanted to start my own business, be my own boss and start doing what i really like doing. I like desinging, i like arts and fashion, I like to create, i like to mentor, i love to sell and entertain people, i have so much inside of me that i don't know how to compose it into a whole. It seems like everything in me is a separate entity, broken or not yet found, afraid and complacent..i need to seek once again what i am really capable of doing, who am i and what are the things that can really really makes me happy. I wanted to know my greatest capacity, greatest creativity, i wanted to make the best of me to come out. i believe i am someone more than i am today. i believe i can be somebody more courageous, more artistic, more genuine, more beautiful, more than what i am doing at work or on facebook, more on what i write on blogs or on my diary, something more on what i read on books, novels or what is shown on the internet, or on my everyday routines. i wanted to seek how to be of use to my best ability to other people, to my beloved significant others and to myself and to God who is up there watching me and telling me hey, - get up and move now, out of your comfort zone, do something different out of the ordinary. do you still wanted to sleep at night alone while your kids is outhere not in your own haven?..do you still wanted to wake up early in the morning and do everyday routine for another five years? do you still wanted to do those good paying job even if you are not happy? do you still wanted another year for the same thing all over again?

oh no. not i.

i need somewhere to begin.
i need to.
before the color of my hair change.

p.s
help me find the key.


xx

Sunday 6 November 2011

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item: (pipa in filipino)- pipe with aztec design modify into a bullet case, 18k gold, use for accessories, pendant or simple keeps for those who treasure real treasure.




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Saturday 8 October 2011

Jobs




it's been three days since Mr Apple died.
and pardon me, i don't know him.
i don't know anything about him.
i have no idea what he has done to deserve the whole world to think about no one but him on the day he died.

but now i tried to read some notes about him.
then i realized he is an inspiration to all.
living or dead.
if i wanted to keep something about him, it would be his inspirations and advises about life.
thus, find the one you love, never settle for anything less, may it be in relationship or work.
and stay hungry, stay foolish all throughout life.
do not be satified of 'good'
because 'better' sounds much better.

Jobs.
you got a good and better job.
you live your life to the fullest, though you died young.

'nobody wanted to die'.
nobody.
perhaps, it's true.
death is exodus.
i hate it too.
goodbye, Mr Apple.

Sunday 2 October 2011

one of the lousiest sunday ever!

have you got one of those days?

when you wanted to go out somewhere but the husband is not in the mood to go out anywhere aside from his battle field on the puter. i don't like it when i have nothing to do but wait for the night time to come and more head ache and boresomeness and idleness and nothing to do but domestic life and gaze my laptop and read some blogs without moving anywhere..this is not my favorite sunday, this is one of the lousiest ever!

i tend to enjoy myself when i am alone.
i go out.
eat some pizza.
or window shopping.
or shoe trying.
or simply just go out and ride a train.
just to be out of the house for awhile and do something nice
and avoid being at home during weekend.

money is not a problem.
i can go out without buying anything.
i can go out just having a cake or two.
or just browsing books in any bookstore.

eiiw totally bored.
next weekend it must not be this way.
i should go out if i like it.

if only i have no menstruation
i probably out of the street right now.

=(


maybe i can try to practice this little quote i found last night.



Saturday 1 October 2011

Notes to myself

The Invitation
By Oriah Mountain Dreamer


It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for,
And if you dare to dream of meeting
Your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
For love, for your dream,
For the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,
If you have been opened by life's betrayals,
Or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further
pain.


I want to know if you can sit with pain,
Mine or your own,
Without moving
To hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy,
Mine or your own,
If you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
Without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic,
or to remember
the limitations of being human.


It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.

I want to know
if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself,
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.

I want to know if you
can be faithless and therefore be trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty
Even when it is not pretty every day,

And if you can source your life
From its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure,
Yours and mine,
And still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.

I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair,
Weary and bruised to the bone,
And do what needs to be done for the
children.

It doesn't interest me who you are, how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
In the center of the fire with me
And not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
From the inside
When all else falls
away.

I want to know if you can be alone
With yourself,
And if you truly like the
company you keep
In the empty moments.











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Wednesday 21 September 2011

street boys

watched the episode of '24 hours alerto' in the philippine tv news, the topic is all about street boys, so many faces of teen ager gangs who is doing the survival act to live. thus, open car thief, pick pockets, drugs and all the inhuman act one never dreamed of experiencing.
.. but these kids, this very teen agers of my own country is unfortunately experiencing them all.

i do not know how our politician or government can help them renewed themselves or help them to have a life they deserve. i mean, there are so many ways to address this kind of problem but those who are suppose to make or solve this situation is busy with other unimportant matters.

dear God, if you are listening to my prayer this time, let it be a prayer of hope for those kids, they are so pity at the same time hopelessness in their eyes is so painful to feel.
if you want me to do something about this please help me to know and fill myself with things i can give them, not money but life and future.
because they deserve one.

all of them in general.

XX

Thursday 25 August 2011

rainy day and friday


this is part of the parking area where i used to live. so silent and wet.

-because it's been raining the whole evening and still raining this morning, the reason why i didn't wake up early and i send sms to my colleague that i decided to take a leave today. not a good thing to do, where in fact there is so much job to do in the office..but i think 'one day leave' is not that bad. today, i can rest from boresome and tiresome office activities. here at home i will do nothing but read again my books and watch tv or open my facebook and all, do some chores and well maybe, just maybe i go and see Salvation Army.



looking outside my door for a glance of outside world..just woke up.late for work. i don't know what i dreamt last night it is some kind of weird thing i don't want to remember.


better go back to bed and savor the sweet friday morning.

see ya later alligator!

Saturday 20 August 2011

denim is IN

nowadays, i've seen a lot of denim fashion
may it be on a magazine or facebook online shops or on fashion shows
now, if you happen to see them a lot - you wanted to have something also
that seems to be a part of the IN, right?

here's what i found on the internet while browsing some denim
wear, shoes, and hat and even bags..this can be a good idea if i happen to
find a thrift store later or sooner.











bag: courtesy of Style-ish Collection via facebook

...ooopppsss, Hahaha, my ever favorite blogger Denise K.'s newest denim shoe's should be around here too. i've seen them on valerie's blog yesterday i guess she doesn't mind if i put it here too..=)



courtesy of: Denise Katipunera - Shoe etiquette


do you heart all of this?


i do,

Ms j

wanted to feel good in anyway i can

the whole morning was a bit empty and boring
got myself a book and a coffee and one piece of tuna sandwich
got hungry again when 12noon strike, i was so lazy to cook
and just take a shower and off to mcdonalds.
i ordered chicken grill salad and a lemonade.
after i ate it all, i head to a grocery store and buy some detergent for my laundry
and then off i went back to our apartment, sit down some more and watch movie, read books, listen to music, listen to adele songs 'someone like you, and kate winslet what if and amanda's our little house..all of this songs makes me more sad and miserable.

so what then i should do before i ended up this saturday 20th of august?
-well i decided to cut off watching bridget jones and blog a little while.

get this old picture (not so old i think) it was just this month pic too
to make me feel good any of way.

see if you like it too.
because i adore this.






from kateslove store, a red orange satchel, this is originally from hongkong, it makes my heart happy when i saw this one smiling back at me, so i take it home.

see my face after i got it..=)