just a thought for myself today

Sometimes, this is so true.

Sometimes you thought things were okey

but in the real sense they were not

or they become 'not okey'

I think it is impossible to live happily ever after

I think that's a fallacy

because no matter how you tried to be okey

make your life on the right path

or the right way

meet people and love them

have your own family

have your own source of living

make things quite okey

but god, why you allow such things to come

on our lives.

fuck you JULIE N. GARCIA whoever you are.

fuck yourself off my husband's mind.

you are one of the cruelest person on earth if you wreck my family.

you are not going to have a peaceful sleep i tell you.

every night and day i will pray that your conscience will guide you.

but fuck you any of way.

red color

tonight i ask my sister to paint my fingernails red.

red.

my first time to have it colored red.
i am a plain color girl only
but i do not know.
my life now seems to be in limbo.
as well as my heart.
i am as hurt as the color of blood.
but i shouldn't bother my heart about dishonest act of love.
i am still whole and complete.
inspite of everything.

if only i can control all things on earth.
and makes the time go in or go out the way i wanted it to be.
i hate 'other woman'
i hate all 'other woman' in the whole world.
how come they wanted to destroy a happy family?
why do they want someone who happens to be a husband of someone already?

i hate that bitch.
i wanted to ignite her hair and make her pay for so many sleepless night i cried.

God help my heart.

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Dear blogspot, Why did you suddenly change? Is this for the better? I haven't been with you for the past few weeks because I am busy. But it doesn't mean you will change without prior notice. Sometimes, i don't like it when friendster change, followed by facebook emails now it's you. Anyway, I do not want to say anything as of now. I just have a crooked eyebrow when i saw your new look. i cannot follow at once. i need few days. still, i hope you will not change. stay as sweet as you are. Jassy

simply basic

i am officially 11 days in the philippines.
so far, quite good.
i am dreaming a lot nowadays.
dreaming of so many dreams.
they are very huge to ponder.
but whenever i feel so exhausted of making it real-
i go back to basic.
i simply would wanted to start small.

the thing is-i don't feel any regrets.
i don't feel like i wanted to go back to the old ways of living
i feel that it is no longer my world.

this choice should move farther than i planned.

slowly.
like a handmade flag.

when too much is too much

what to do when you do not want to hear a lot of life's drama from someone close to you?
i am drain already from hearing again and again and again the same story.
i give few advices but she just ignore it or make her own excuses.
so what's the point of listening all over again the same story, the same problem, the same shit?

if you are someone who do not want to listen to an advice or suggestion from a friend or a sister or confidante you better stop telling your friend the same thing all over again and get her sympathy, or dominate an hour of the same stories (again and again 100x)and be a sole performer, you are just giving her headache and earache because you are doomed to your own life you don't want anybody's help anyway.

i am so impatient these days.
i refuse to be a good listener.
i am fed up of stressful things, sad stories, hopelessness and stubborn people.

i am in headache free mode so puhhlezzzz give me a breeeaaaakkkk!

(just outbursting an angry feeling - sorry blog)

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My place

well, time runs really fast and before i can manage to make myself write a new post for my blog updates i am already in my country and set my foot in Davao.

to tell you the truth - i am not spending a summer vacay.
i am roaming around the city to find a place to live in.
i am currently in my sister's abode and it is always my choice to be independent and live
away from her (not because i hated being near her but it would be best to live away from each other some-how) i think every sibling should have a place of his own, agree or not?

anyway, she got her own family and i will be with my family so soon too.

time status: i am 6 days old now in Davao and so far what i accomplished is - i found a rentable home for me and my small family. we are about to move on the first week of April-that is a good start any of way. this is not a permanent home, maybe one or two years? maybe. oh,i saw a lot of nice nice houses located southway of Davao and it is amazingly cool and extremely beautiful in my eyes. a local actress, 'erich gonzales' also buy one slot in there. i wish i can own one like that too in the near future and people will call me 'the girl who lives next door to an actress' hah! - duh..=)

this is the picture of the house we saw - the color is a combination of beige/white with lemon green and mocha brown marble wall facade. 3 bedrooms and 2 toilets. fully polished interior materials - ah, nice small dream to behold, is it not?

my rentable temporary house look like this in person too...oh i love 'house hunting! maybe i can be a realty estate agent instead of an architect. i am tired doing a work from the scratch. being a realty estate agent is more ready to go go. i think it would be a good part time job for me.
i know the basic already. so a little more knowledge won't hurt too much of my time. wink* wink*

back to reality: next step is my business stall-i already have prospect to where i will put my START up business.
what i need to do is to make contact with specific people and make a deal.
to be followed by business permits and so on and so forth.

life is still lovely.
no problem so far (i wish it will stay this way).
money is still okey.
hubby is giving me approval in anything i do.
later on-life will start to evolve in my 'entrepreneurship' years.
i wish myself goodluck.

have a good day everyone!

Two days left

Lately, I would say this is the most 'relax' mode I ever had in my life since i came to Singapore.
Well, everytime I don't have a particular job on a corporate world I really am like this. I remember when I resigned from my previous job I am also like this-seems like eternity to do nothing just -waiting-

but life is nice to live day by day like this.
it's not complicated.
it's simple.
it's so darling.
but i guess this is not so good for me to live like this for so long.
i also get so screamingly bored.
i get stuck up and tend to play games on the net, read more books and lazy in everyway.

anyway, it is more or less two more days before i leave Singapore.
i am not sure if it is for good.
i also do not know if i can come back again.
i would like to come back for my H, and to go to places i haven't got the chance to visit, nothing more nothing less.
i do not want to work here 'nymore too.
i spell enough.

i ended my journey with a lesson secured in my mind.
and whatever i gained or lose from being here, one thing for sure-no regrets!
I love you Singapore, but you are not mine.